Update!

4/22

My friends and I had a wine/PowerPoint night tonight. We’d been trying to plan one for so long, but with school, work, and everything else, it was nearly impossible. However, finals are wrapping up, so tonight was the night! Not many people really know this, but the last six to nine months of my life have been the most challenging, testing times I’ve ever faced. Any kind of life issue you can think of—I went through it.

I went to see a therapist one day (and of course, on my way there, I got a speeding ticket). But after just one session, I realized my problems weren’t really things I could solve in a straightforward way. Some, sure, but others were just things I had to let the universe work out. And let’s just say—it did. After ghosting that therapist, I decided rock bottom was no longer a place I wanted to hang out. I got really tough on myself—in a good way. I stopped working so much, prioritized my friends more, focused on sleep, and even picked up healthy habits like a solid morning routine and Pilates.

You probably don’t care about any of this because it sounds like another girl who just “woke up on the wrong side of the bed,” but trust me—it wasn’t something a matcha and a haircut could fix. It took everything in me.

I also developed a crush over the past few months. As many of you know, I had a major crush from when I was 18 that I could never really shake. If you’d asked me back then, I would have told you, with full confidence, that he was my soulmate. I honestly thought I’d marry him. But, of course, life doesn’t work like that. And until you really understand that you can’t force something like that, you’re just going to keep moving backward.

This new guy isn’t anything huge yet, but he gives me that butterfly feeling I had missed so much—wondering when he’s going to text me, what he’s doing. It’s a step in a new direction, and honestly, it’s been so good for me.

I also started babysitting a little baby boy back in January, and he’s the absolute light of my life. When I hit my ultimate low in 2024, I was introduced to this tiny 6-month-old who changed me in every way possible. I dropped most responsibilities outside of school and just spent time with him. There’s something about having someone rely on you and love you unconditionally that made me start trying to love myself. He’s 10 months now and still my favorite little bestie. I love how life can change within a few months when you really want it to.

Oh, and earlier tonight, I burned my hand—literally grabbed the stove after my best friend and I made drunken pasta and chicken. We were laughing so hard because she couldn’t get the dishwasher to close, and without thinking, I grabbed the burner that had just been on high heat. Burned my hand, she dropped and shattered a wine glass earlier in the night. I ate more today than I planned, and I’m up way later than I wanted to be. But honestly? I feel so lucky to be surrounded by people who make it all okay when normal, annoying things go wrong.

I love my friends, I love my life, and I truly couldn’t ask for anything more. I don’t know what this summer has in store, but for once in my life, I’m excited to find out.

This post is kind of all over the place, but it’s been a minute, so I figured I’d give a little update. Bye for now!

XO-Em